Candle Wax.

Relationships are like candles. They burn bright and beautiful at the beginning, exuding a warm feeling and happiness. But candles burn out and the wick gets used up and eventually that candle that was once so bright and beautiful fizzles out into a mess of burnt wick and boiling hot wax that hurts to touch. 

Sadly, mine and Mark's wick has run out. We split up yesterday which I'm not taking particularly well, I have to admit. It was getting too difficult to continue what we had as we were in different parts of our lives and were both having to work a lot, meaning we could barely talk, let alone see each other. We always knew there would be a risk of this happening as we were long distance so seeing each other regularly wasn't going to happen but it still isn't nice to accept that it's finished.

I'm glad we didn't end on a bad note but it still hurts all the same. We were getting too distant for it to be much of a relationship so ending it felt like the best option we had. I'm still fond of him but some things are for the best. 

I know we'll still be friends because we've always got along so well and who knows, maybe when the time is right we'll relight another candle and put in in place of the old one. 

Jess xx 

I will survive!

I had my first driving lesson at Mercedes Benz world even though I'm not 17 today!
I didn't crash or kill anyone!
I was so nervous to begin with, but it was really good once I knew how to do everything. I was in a manual which made everything just that little bit harder, but I got the knack of it in the end which is good! So yeah, I'm super proud of myself that I actually did well!
I'm so excited too, Dan and Phil's radio show is starting in 5 minutes!!! I just know it's going to be amazing! I've got to listen to the rest of radio 1 at the moment and it's so rubbish...it's hurting my ears :( but I don't want to miss the start of Dan and Phil's radio show!!!!!!!!! The things I do for my favourite YouTubers :')
Jess xx

hmm...

You know you just get the days where all you want to do is curl up in bed with hot chocolate and a good book, then forget the world for a bit? Yeah, having one right now :/
The problem is that I really don't have a specific idea why so it's even more annoying and confusing!
I guess it's just a mix of stress about exams coming up and missing Simon again. Plus the fact that I'm sure I've failed the biology end of topic test today too, probably doesn't help :( I hate days like this, it makes everything so difficult.
I'm always so positive about everything so the bad days are hard to deal with, they're few and far between these days luckily. Just wish I could snap out of it easier :(
Sorry about the lack of blogging recently though, I've been doing loads of work and I haven't had time to blog at all, but if I've had any ideas over the last few days, I've written them down so I can make a super awesome post sometime in the near future hopefully! :)
I've also got a new thing for wearing skirts and dresses; they're so comfortable and are actually really warm! Plus they always look prettier than jeans. Well, most of the time, anyway!
Ugh, I can feel a headache coming on...it really isn't my day :(
But yeah, Classics essay plan to do for tomorrow which will be interesting....
Jess xx

December

It's the first of december which means advent calendar and my grandma's birthday!! :3 we're going out for a meal and it's gonna be awesome ^.^ then I have to do loads of work when I get home D: a levels are getting pretty difficult now :( but it's fun :)
Anyway, I've gotta go :)
Jess xx